lifes fucked, ya know that?

[Rocan]

just had first real brawl with my father. reasons i wont go into (really, pointless). all is well i guess... parents arent abusive but my mom is a bit on the harsh side with her words and it gets to all of us.

anyway, i was upset, i threatened my sister, dad threatened me, and when he touched me i pushed him back. got me into multiple holds which i got out of, then he got me into a bear hug and i straight up dropped him. onto my arm. it hurts, i think i tore a ligament. not going to bother with hospital, just let it heal a bit.

that, doesnt bother me. what bothers me is i have work sunday, missing the VIN moto show. on top of it, im going to have to find a way to lift 30 pound bikes with my left hand up flights of stairs. i will not say i cant; too much pride i guess.

so, lifes fucked. i got tons of work to do in the following weeks, for school and college, and im just sick of it all.

i want my bike done to ride... one day ill be free.

this isnt a cry for help, just a reflection on how my life is. i trust you all will be men and not flame me. im not doing one of those life things. just trying to use dttt as counseling for a bit since the standard counseling never helped anyway..

 

[Saki]

shit sucks, I know how it is. Before my dad got his shit all together he sucked punched me, bout killed him that night if my mom wasn't there.

 

[Rocan]

im going to have to hit up the hospital tomorrow... every movement i make with my right arm is making me wince in pain...

hope im alright for work this sunday.

 

[Midcoastcustoms]

im going to have to hit up the hospital tomorrow... every movement i make with my right arm is making me wince in pain...

hope im alright for work this sunday.

Rocan hang in there things aren't always as bad as they seem. Look around if you got a roof over your head, food to eat, and clothes to wear your doing better than a vast majority of people in this world. Someone told me once if you won't give a shit bout it in 6th months let it go. Negativity breeds negativity. Focus on what really does matter...

 

[Rocan]

thanks mcc... ill be alright. i just wish my parents could owe up to what they do.

i dont claim to be perfect, but ill admit my faults.

 

[Uncle Ernie]

This is the gool ol' days, Kiddo.

You can't change other people, but you can control and take responsibility for yourself. Like the bathroom stall said; "You do it all to you".
(That may not make sense right now, but when the lightbulb does on over your head, remember you heard it here first : ;D )

 

[Denver500]

You probably heard the saying - You can choose your friends, but you can't choose your family.

How about - You can pick your nose, but you can't pick your friends nose.

No matter how bad things seem, it's always worse for somebody else.

Keep your head up brother.

 

[4eyes]

"anyway, i was upset, i threatened my sister, dad threatened me,"
What goes around, comes around


"i got tons of work to do"
So, ignore the drama, do the work, and look out for #1

Have you ever heard the saying, "Sometimes discression is the beter part of valor" ? It means that sometimes the best thing you can do is WALK AWAY. 8)

 

[interceptor]

We may have our differences, but no one likes to hear this kind of stuff. Your right, you need to go to the doctor, ligaments don't just heal on their own. I bet if you ask 9 out of 10 guys here, something like this has happened to them, too in some way shape or form. I think it's like a rights of passage to manhood or something. Hope your feeling better soon.

 

[BlackCoyote]

it's real hard to do but forgive and forget....they're family, stuff happens but your blood. Just remember not to be like your old man when your at it with your son someday.

 

[Rocan]

thanks all... ill make an appointment with the doctor at some point today.

many great words are here... you guys are great.

 

[Deviant1]

This is the gool ol' days, Kiddo.

You can't change other people, but you can control and take responsibility for yourself. Like the bathroom stall said; "You do it all to you".
(That may not make sense right now, but when the lightbulb does on over your head, remember you heard it here first : ;D )

Dude, Ernie just dropped some serious wisdom.
And thank you Ernie.

 

[Rocan]

Bruised humerus, strained tricep tendons (tricep tendonitis). 3 weeks or so of pain. no cast, but i got a stupid sling.

 

[JRK5892]

sucks...my dad is my best friend... that i hard for me to picture..

cool sling! ha ha ha been there... i took a swing drunk at a guy in a bar fight. was about 2 ft away from my target and tore my tricep tendon... ya real cool

 

[Rocan]

sucks...my dad is my best friend... that i hard for me to picture..

cool sling! ha ha ha been there... i took a swing drunk at a guy in a bar fight. was about 2 ft away from my target and tore my tricep tendon... ya real cool

me and him used to be super tight... guess time and small things made us move apart. we got our bondy moments every so often, but... its just hard to explain

 

[Uncle Ernie]

Save up for your 18th birthday- starting now. First and last deposit, foam mattress and sheets, maybe you'll need a car, basic kitchen stuff... it adds up fast.

 

[Rocan]

Save up for your 18th birthday- starting now. First and last deposit, foam mattress and sheets, maybe you'll need a car, basic kitchen stuff... it adds up fast.

been saving for the past couple years... its not much, but its about a years salary working minimum wage.

 

[Swagger]

I can't comment on yours because ODB (Old Dirty Bastard.....my progenitor) is a complete tool. My first (mumblemumblemumble 7 mumblemumble broken noses and one jaw wiring are directly attributable to him. I hesitate to say this but I will......get out when you can. Uncle E gives good advice on several accounts. 'You do it to yourself' is quite profound in it's simple wisdom. As well, saving your cash and getting yourself independent may well salvage your relationship with your Dad and possibly your mom as well.

The whole threatening your sister thing though.....kinda weak little brother. She may be annoying, might piss you off to no end but you'll have her around way longer than your folks. Keep it in mind.

.....and hang in little lion man, the future is yours to decide. Make wise decisions.

 

[NFG]

Feel for you dude. Keep a clear head. Count to ten before you react.

A little story of my youth. My dad was great till I hit about 12. Now I was a big kid and working on the farm put a lot of muscle on me add to that I was six foot by that time. My dad was a dominant male type that yelled and threw his weight around. I put up with it for many years. One day I snapped. Threw him down and if it wasn't for my mum stepping in I would have smashed him. Left home that day and never went back. I was taken in by a friend and in no time was living my own life. Sure it is a shock at first but you grow up fast.

Looking back I see that the problem was not with me. My dad was being challenged by me without my knowing. He was going through a toothless lion syndrome type phase of his life. He was afraid of loosing his pride/domain to a new dominate male. Turns out he was also going through a midlife crisis and had a girl on the side. His life fell apart soon after. My mother left him for many years only letting him return when he found himself again. He is not the same man anymore. Now older and wiser he knows what he did was silly. He was out of control and couldn't help himself.

Now many years later I have made my peace with my dad. I love him for what he gave me growing up. He was an amazing man and taught me many things and was always there for me. He was not perfect and I know that now. What I learned was that I could look after myself and I became my own man. I think before I act. I know I am not perfect but try to be anyway. Life is good. We only get one go at it so enjoy the ride........

 

[Rocan]

good words from you guys...

im sticking with the parents until college...aparently they have a college fund for me that can get me most of the way. no matter how bad it gets im sticking with them just to take advantage of that.