Err...not really sure what tack this is taking now. Guy gets on here to complain how he is failing at everything he touches, due to the things we all have been telling him would make him fail for 3+ years. But then he doesn't want to hear about it, and tells us everything is under control, and describes his superhuman abilities.
David, as I said before, I'm not one to try to upstage you. But no matter your abilities, opportunities, or your intelligence, you have have been relegated to the "fail" side of the room. You're hitting the bottom, and no matter how much you tell yourself that you have the skills, that you have worked hard in the past, or been great in the past, to your university and to yourself you have been a failure. You are getting measured by the world's standard now, kid. You might have made this realization, but it seems you are just vocalizing it, without getting what it really is. I really feel bad for your situation, and I hope that you can turn it around.
But I am not holding my breath waiting. I have seen this same thread played out half a dozen times before for you. You rant about how your life sucks--then everyone gives some advice--and then you get mad at everyone's advice, telling them how you know all that, and how you built your house with your own two hands. The funny part is that if any of that mattered, you wouldn't be in the position you are. But you just don't seem to get it, and you do it all over again.
So suck it up, get in your basement, and finish that bike. Then go to school in January, and take your education back. Those are things that you can control and make happen, right now. Everything to this point doesn't matter.
Is this actually looking for help/ guidance--or is this a junior prom episode? I can't really tell. But I guess drama sells...we all keep tuning in.
Thanks for not putting this in your bike build thread, btw.